Jerry van Leeuwen

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Fiddly Bird

2001-12-20 - 2019-07-10


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Featuring Fiddle, yellow fluff-ball cockatiel

This was not the first real new post I had intended to write.
Life has a way of interfering with best-laid plans.
Some time between Tuesday night and Wednesday morning, Fiddle the cockatiel found a corner in the bottom of his cage to fall asleep for the last time.

When my brother Sander was visiting Australia in 2001, we took a big road-trip up into Queensland along the coast and then back down on the back roads through Tamworth. No real specific reason to go there other than there’s a Big Guitar and when you are having a road trip with your brother it needs no more justification than that.

At the time I had a habit of wandering into pet stores just to look at the animals. This fateful day, there was a very inquisitive cockatiel right at the front of the cage, following me while all the others scurried away. That does not normally happen.

I did not want to buy a new pet on a road trip. But I also could not bear to leave this unusual little guy behind. Naturally, the outcome was inevitable.

Fiddle First Day

That evening Sander, Abbey, and I were talking to the newly named Fiddle (partly because he was a fiddly bird, and partly because Tamworth), and as I remember it he learned to say/play “peekaboo” under a tissue that very first night.

That is probably the part of his repertoire that everyone will best remember.

He learned a few more tricks; whistling pop-goes-the-weasel, “hello”, “what ya doing?”, “whaddya want?”… and various improvisations mixing these together with garbled half-words.

For the last few years he has guarded our front door together with a budgie that just blew in one year (not a euphemism for anything), chatting to various delivery-persons and droppers-by.

I’ll miss his chatter and whistling.
I won’t miss the racket he’d make when food or drink was not up to his standard.
But for a while his absence will be a distraction.

I don’t know why exactly, but the hardest part wasn’t that he had passed away; 18 is quite respectable for a cockatiel. It wasn’t digging a spot for him near the study window. … It was covering the grave back up, and worrying a cat might get in, and asking Abbey to find a protective rock to put on top.

And I seem to have pulled a muscle in my right shoulder in the process, so I have a lingering reminder of that hardest part for a while at least.

Occasionally there is a bitter-sweet echo of Fiddle outside the window in the imitations by the budgie.

It’ll be okay soon, but let’s not talk about it today.

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Hi, I'm Jerry.
I am Dutch.
I live in Sydney, Australia.
I remote-work for Heap in San Francisco.